Finding Peace
Preface: I woke up this morning at 6am in a bus with a thought, this is not my best work of writing, it would be scribbles in a book if written by hand.
This morning I woke up with a thought, “to be happy is to let go of happiness and succumb to life’s terrors”. To me, this means that in order to achieve happiness and contentment you have to stop thinking about them and live life as it comes. Having no expectations doesn’t just set the bar real low or high, it simply takes the bar away. See, if you take a bad circumstance and turn it into your life’s problem, then what will happen if something even worse presents itself? Or if something really good comes along and you’re so happy about it that the next time good happens its not AS good and the time after that you get bored of this happy and need a new obsession. I see good and evil as pretty much the same thing; both positive and negative interchangeably, so if both are teaching me a good lesson, then what evil is coming of it? There is no evil. The answers are all inside of your being. You hold the power of growth, you can manipulate how the world ignites itself around you. This is your world, just like it’s mine, and just like it is its own. We live amongst each other and can coexist if we exist for our Selves and observe the rest, taking each action and word with a grain of salt. If you change your perspective of right and wrong to what you feel is positive or negative you will never be deceived, your Higher Self knows. Now that we know that our Higher Selves are in the know, we should know to give that Self time to know. This time is useful when used for meditation. Meditation will teach you many, many lessons, one of them being that you are oh-so-small in this itty-bitty world. When I first realized that this isn’t my world and my world only I honestly had a complete breakdown. I wailed for a solid week, went to yoga classes and cried there, meditated (or tried), but after I could feel the truth presenting itself it’s like it saw a light and leapt directly at it. I didn’t stop having ‘revelations’ for weeks. All I thought about was how unreal everything is and how much more real that makes it. Let’s take the word “human” for example: “human” was a word made up by what it means, we made it! Along with every other word and every other explanation of our race and the world we live in. This life is an imaginary one. If we took all the meaning and purpose we have given ourselves and threw it out the window, then we would be forced to figure it out all on our own. It’s funny though, we did that once, the difference being that when one or a few people decided on society and communication between all people, it spread through everyone because it was an easy answer given to them. We have a natural tendency to have faith, which is where God came in back then. God used to own the benefit of the doubt. He filled holes where people felt alone, lost and in need of answers. Though, as soon as people started being skeptical of this God, as soon as He was questioned, the benefit of the doubt was also put under a spotlight. Researching commenced, and soon enough word going around was that God was made up, and that has resulted in many people believing in belief and desiring to be faithful, when in reality they are holding onto a dream instead of a reality. Well, looking at the situation, I choose to be ignorant. I know the answer that satisfies my desires is that all comes from within. I am God and God is me. I meditate and there is no little man in the sky telling me to relax. I am digging deeper to reach my higher self where intuition is taking control and allowing me to sit back and watch as life happens. Every answer I have come to has come from a place inside of me. I do always listen very intently to people who have something to say, I just have my own translation of the things said.